When I Write a Cover Letter

When I write a cover letter, I suddenly forget that I know how to put together a coherent sentence. I also find it the perfect time to do everything else you can do on a computer EXCEPT craft a one-page professional statement about why I am qualified for such and such position.

It’s the perfect time to…

…decide to read my Feedly in its entirety

…find new blogs to follow and catch up on all their latest posts

…refresh my FB news feed every 5 minutes

…look at my FB profile as if I’m someone else

…search for other jobs that also require cover letters

…start this blog post

…And OH! now I’m hungry…

Before you know it, I’ve got way too many tabs open on Safari…only some of which are dedicated to finding a synonym for “developed” or “strengthened.”

It’s mayhem, takes way longer than it should and only leaves me feeling hungry, irritable, and discouraged.

And when my mom brought up my job-search yesterday, I just sat there and cried. Between tears I believe I choked out “I feel like every cover letter I write just goes straight to the trash bin.”

I know this is most likely not true. Logically speaking. But sometimes I don’t like to speak logically. If you don’t know this about me already, then just feel free to educate yourself here and here.

Emotions are running high these days people. Summer is winding down and this girl is not the proud new ‘owner’ of a grown-up job. And if I see one more minimum requirements: Bachelor’s in Anything other than Spanish, I am going to start speaking in a British accent and never ever stop and start insisting everyone call me Hermione. In other words, I’m going to lose it.

I am not a logical being.

I knew it was going to be hard…I knew it would probably be discouraging, but I have found that there is a HUGE difference in knowing what something is going to be like and actually swimming through the reality of it.

I tell you all this tonight because this is my life right now. I am crying on the couch and taking 2 hours to write a cover letter. And I’m losing some of the beauty in the unknown wisdom.

Is life still beautiful? Absolutely.

Is there beauty in this mess? I’m sure there is.

Am I going to spend my entire life looking for my 1st full time job? No.

But can we just all admit (all the 20-somethings who are maybe nodding along with this post) that job-searching ain’t for the faint of heart? And yes I just said ain’t because this is NOT a cover letter.

And for the rest of you…

If you have any questions or wish to discuss things further please feel free to contact me via email. Thank you for your time and consideration and I look forward to hearing from you soon.

Sincerely,

Mary Emily ‘Mel’ Lee

And FYI – The natural deodorant is a thumbs up. I’ve had ‘end of the day sniff confirmations’ from both Anna Wallace and Cain.

I’m a great sister.

Happy almost-end of Tuesday friends!

xoxo,

Mel

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9 thoughts on “When I Write a Cover Letter

  1. Time is on your side, have faith and yes not only are you a great sister, you are a wonderful niece and I love you!
    Aunt Paula

  2. Mary Emily, I am in COMPLETE accordance with everything that you’ve written. Yesterday I laid on the bathroom mat in my bathroom and cried and prayed for just five minutes of mental freedom from worrying about tomorrow and whether I’d find purpose in my life. I graduated this past May with a degree in English-Creative writing, and a double minor in Italian, and Human Development &Consumer Science.
    I suppose I was well aware that the job market was “terrible” prior to graduating, but I was just naive to think that I wouldn’t be affected by it. Initially, within the first few weeks post-graduation, I was calm and optimistic. Now, ten weeks out, I’m stressed and upset that life is not at all what I thought it was growing up. The world doesn’t welcome you with open arms and employers do not value that glimmer in your eye that exists as a new inhabitant of the “grown up” world.
    It’s easy to get bogged down by the harsh realities of life. Keep the faith, Mary Emliy. I know it sucks now–I’m going through the same thing. Just be faithful that the storm will clear soon in His perfect timing.

    Best Wishes, and thank you for writing this.

    –Virginia

    • Virginia,

      Thank you for your comment! I wrote this post in hopes that other 20-somethings/recent grads out there who may be feeling the same way could find some encouragement in the fact that they aren’t the only ones. And your response has served as surprising comfort and encouragement for me. Thank you for sharing your struggles with me. I wish you ALL the best. And yes, it will all work out in His perfect timing, this I know for sure…but sometimes forget when I’m in the middle of everything. Here’s to finding direction and purpose and to welcoming the world with open-arms even if it won’t do the same for us. Next time you feel like the stress is too much, feel free to email me on here and we can vent together. I would welcome that!

      Thank you again for sharing a part of your story with me.

      -Mel

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