Today, lately, ever since I looked at my high school Yearbook over Christmas Break, I have been grateful for the opportunity to change. My senior year of high school was one of the best years of my life. The summer that followed was even better. I was on top of the world and I honestly didn’t think things could get any better.
Now, basically 4 years later, the yearbook was a reminder of what used to be.
I had a great time in high school, a great time. I had great friends, and as I already mentioned once…I really didn’t believe that life could get any better. I’m pretty sure I thought I knew everything (mom you’ll probably attest to this without hesitation), and I was happy.
Now that I look back, I realize how important everything about my life in high school was at the time, how everything was interconnected, and how small my world was. And all I can think now is ‘wow…what a different person.’ I know at my core I am not fundamentally a different person and I probably haven’t changed as much as it seems, but I literally picture myself in high school, and I’m not sure that I know that girl. And whoever she is…she definitely didn’t know everything.
I feel smarter now, not in the way that ‘I’m older so NOW I must know everything’…but in the way that I realize how much I don’t know and how much bigger the world is than what I found so important back then.
So basically what I am getting at is that I am glad that high school isn’t the end all be all for who you’re going to be. It definitely feels that important at the time (or at least it did for me), but it’s really only the beginning. I am so thankful for the opportunity to change after high school, for the opportunity to grow into a better version of yourself, to learn new things, and to become part of the bigger world around you.
This change is necessary to move on in life, and the opportunity is presented to everyone. I am glad for this (as if I haven’t said that enough), not only for myself, but also for people who maybe didn’t have a good high school experience and got to leave it behind to go on to live a better life. Because everyone deserves a chance to be awesome.
My senior year of high school and the summer that followed is still (and probably always will be) one of the best/happiest times of my entire life (as it should be). But I can now see why high school ends and why we have to move on to bigger things in a bigger world. We are made for something greater, and there are more happiest times to be had.
And while I am nowhere near done growing or learning, I can definitely say that I have grown up for the better since high school as I believe we all do. I am more confident in who I am and the way I live my life, and I am stronger and more independent than I was back then.
So while change isn’t always easy, and can in fact be down right unbearable sometimes, I am glad to know that eventually we can become grateful for it and see it as an opportunity to grow.
And for those of you absolutely loving your senior year of high school…like my brother William (who I know for a fact isn’t reading this, or even knows I have a blog) don’t let this post depress you, for that is not my intention. Continue loving it, because it truly is one of the best times of your life and you should enjoy every second.
Like my brother here…
(and yes he does actually get that many likes on his instagram photos…)